Baby Grace Trial, Curious Case of a Former Porn Star

Baby Grace Trial
Rarely does a story rock me to my foundations. One such case was the rapes and murders of Jennifer Ertman and Elizabeth Peña.

The other story that has shocked me just as hard has been the Baby Grace trials in session in Galveston, TX.

During the trial, detailed descriptions emerged of the beating and abuse the little girl went through on her final day on earth.

I'll never comprehend how someone can abuse a defenseless child. Even worse is that his little girl's own mother subjected her to this abuse. The mother, Kimberly Dawn Trenor, stayed home from work on the request of her husband, Royce Clyde Zeigler, in order to discipline Riley Ann Sawyers aka Baby Grace.

What happened wasn't just abuse. They systematically inflicted pain on the little girl. The beatings started with a thin belt and progressed to a thicker belt in order to inflict more pain. Her head was held under water at one point every time she screamed. They threw her three times on the floor and one resulted in a loud crack. Riley even resorted to telling her mother "I love you" in hopes that the beatings would stop.

When they passed the point of no return they gave her a Tylenol. When she couldn't swallow it they knew they were in trouble. I have to just wonder what was going through their minds. They beat her to near death and think a Tylenol would help.

The details I read in the article were mind numbing and horrible. Like one of my coworkers said, it was probably one of the hardest things he ever read. Another one said she almost started crying. That's cause we were just reading the accounts. In court I'm sure more detail was giving. The jurors were reportedly in tears during testimony. I'm not sure I could sit through listening to something like that.

I think all crimes against children are the worst thing possible. The criminals are the lowest of the low. I like to think that most people have hope of some kind of redemption. Not in this case though. Like the Eartman and Peña murders, I think Riley's mother and stepfather are beyond redemption. Even if they weren't, the crimes are so horrendous that they shouldn't be given a second chance.

Curious Case of an Ex-Porn Star
I debated revealing her identity. She's out there and makes no bones about being a former porn star. I've even exchanged a few emails (which will remain private) with her. In the end though I decided not to reveal her name. She has a website and posts things about her life, her past and where she hopes to head. I found her site accidentally and figured if someone else does that's fine but I'm not going to direct traffic toward her just because she's out there and talking about it.

Miss Ex-Porn star states that she was in the porn industry not for money or fame. She was looking for love. She came from a broken home and didn't know what love was. The only way she could relate to love was through sex and the only sex she knew about was porn.

She then had a revelation if you will. She found God and realized that she didn't have to sell herself for love. She left the porn business and moved on with her life. For that I applaud her. If she wasn't happy and felt used and abused by doing sex films, then she needed to get out. If God and religion helped her get then she did what was right for her. In finding faith, she found a source of strength greater than herself and used it to her advantage.

Now if you read my blast of Kurt Warner and his religion, you are probably wondering why I'm praising Miss Ex-Porn star for her religion?

Big difference between the two. Warner is an athlete on top of the world. He's a multimillionaire with a husband (I swear Brenda Warner is really a man) and seven kids. He's happy. I really don't mind his religion and thanking God for his success but wearing it on his sleeve and praising God at every turn just comes off as smug and arrogant. Plus he uses the wrong forums for it. Miss Ex-Porn star uses it as a source of strength. She used that new found strength to get out of job and business that had started to disgust her. She was not happy. She couldn't get out on her own. She found a way. On her website, which IS an appropriate forum to discuss religion, she tells all and she gives credit to God for digging her out of her situation. Warner just flaunts it on network TV.

So why the Curious Case of an Ex-Porn Star? Simple. She really doesn't hide anything about herself on her website.

She says she's found the love of her life. I also applaud him. How many men would go for a woman with her past and love her for what she is now and not what she was? Not many. The curious part is she's lost her job, found a new one and then never got paid for it. She barely got through December with food and rent. She's struggling to meet rent in January. Yet Mr. Boyfriend is off during the holidays with his family while she struggles alone.

While I did applaud him for claiming to love her, I do wonder how true that is. If my woman were struggling and I claimed to lover, she wouldn't be struggling to make rent or buy food. I know they both profess to be Christians and most churches don't like the idea of the unmarried living together. That said, if it's a matter of survival, you live together. If he genuinely loved her, he'd marry her to meet the requirement of the church. Then they could live together and survive.

Ultimately it's their business how they handle things. However, if they put it out there for everyone to see then they are open to the second guessing and questions.